The close of 2010 left me labeling my year as the year that "got by." Shortly after reading my blog, my friend extended an invitation for me to come and visit her over a long weekend. I wondered if this trip was in conjunction with a birthday wish for her and what exactly she had in mind. The conversation that followed revealed that she had seen me and loved me and wanted to provide rest for my heart. Rest, love, enjoyment, challenge, beauty, connection, and care was experienced that weekend and I left feeling ready to live the year ahead of me.
As I look back on 2011 I would have to say that it was a year filled with intentional living that was evidenced by dramatic, risky, life-altering change.
It's almost comical what just happened to me. As I re-read the last sentence, I felt like the words I picked were too big. Really?! Dramatic, risky, and life-altering are huge words and surely the year I just lived doesn't really fit into those categories. Those words are reserved for people who dream big and travel to foreign places. For people who make decisions with their hearts that leave them doing things that make them look absolutely crazy to anyone on the outside looking in.
And then again...I guess the "people" described here are us. Dreaming big. Traveling and settling in "foreign" places. Making decisions with our hearts. Looking absolutely crazy.
To tell you that this adventure that we are living is easy and everything I imagined, would be a LIE. And still, I am reminded that God has invited me into this chaotic, challenging, emotional, lonely, exhausting, disappointing place because He is kind. Although I am having a hard time seeing the trees from the fog, He is creating a beautiful scene. One that I look forward to dancing into, swirling and twirling in the freedom He has given me.
3 comments:
How I love you and your choice to hold onto the story through chaos. Such great words. Looking forward to walking this year with you.
yes B, you are "those people".
the space you have chosen, without fully knowing what you were choosing, is the space where God is known in intimately un-nerving ways.
it has been quite a year, and now another is underway.
glad to be journeying through it with you again, and this time in closer proximity.
so very glad.
i like that you said these things, mostly so i could reiterate to you that yall are very much so dramatic and risky!!!
been trying to find a time to call you :-P i always think about calling at the most inopportune moments.
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